I guess it doesn’t really matter if it’s my blog or a real life diary.

I end up writing incessantly and diligently in them for 2 weeks…….

And the rest of the pages are subsequently left empty.

Caught BD with Jadey today. It should be rated NC16 at least. I swear. The scenes are extremely intimate and HIGHLY VIOLENT. But the movie was really good. Superceded my expectations completely.

Leaving for Koh Samui in the morning tmr.. Hmm, I’m glad to get away from Singapore for awhile. Just wna leave the country and spend some time alone. I need space. From everything and everyone. It’s been a long long time since I ever had time for myself. To just sit down, pick up a book, read, reflect and immerse myself in self-indulgence (literally).

Sigh. Sometimes I wish people understand this need to back off abit. It’s always hard to be bogged down by expectations… Especially since I’ve been under that crap for the past year. It kinda sucks that now its a different kind of stress that’s put in place:

A need to meet social obligations rather than educational expectations.

I just need some time to get back on track and to “unstretch” my mind for now. I hope everyone understands.I don’t deliberately ignore messages, I’m just busy doing nothing. Paradoxical and almost laughable, but that’s just what I need.